Healing

Feeling much better today.

My incisions are starting to itch, I guess that means they are healing. I'm not supposed to be lifting more than 25 pounds and blah blah. I'm trying to be good, but I can't just sit around either.

I went for a decent walk today, and I did a little bit of yard work.

I practiced playing my guitar today. I learned how to play the "Downard Spiral" tune. It is the few notes that repeat several times on the Nine Inch Nails album. Trent plays it on the piano at the end of "Closer." It's not much, but at least I am making some progress. I just have too many projects and things I want to do.

I finally talked to Aria today. I called her and she was actually talkative and wanted to spend some time on the phone with me to tell me all about the new house and her new room. They went to Worlds of Fun yesterday, it's an amusement park in Kansas City. She told me about her favorite rides and that she wants us to go when we come visit. She got a new bed, it is a loft bed. I guess her new room is a bit small so they got the loft bed to make more space. She's in love with her memory foam mattress.

She met a girl named Holly who has the same birthday as her. Not just the same day, but the same year and everything. What are the odds of that? I mean, I could probably figure it out or Google it, but I really don't want to right now. I just know that it does not happen often.

We talked for about an hour, it was nice to hear her voice. And she's happy and doing well. Talking to her really put me at ease, I may be able to sleep more than just a few hours tonight!

Devin keeps asking me when she's coming home. I told him that she moved to a different city, but it's hard for him to understand what is going on. He misses her, and it is hard for me to see that and try to put him at ease.  I tell him that we all miss her and we will visit her.

I have started disassembling the pallets that my friend Krysten's husband got me from his job. I am learning that taking apart a pallet is a royal pain in the ass. They're built sturdy for a reason, I suppose, and that reason is not to be turned into book shelves and wine racks, lol. I can't wait to actually sand the planks down and begin making something with them. Who knows, maybe I will find a niche that I did not know I had. Maybe I will get addicted to repurposing pallets. There are worse things to be addicted to.

I'm going back to work Wednesday. I feel like I have not been there forever. I took the week off before Aria left to spend some time with her, and it was during that week that I found out that I would have to have surgery, so then I came back to work for a few days and then had to take more time off. My boss and co-workers are very understanding, but I still feel bad, I feel like I am leaving everybody hanging. There is not really a back-up person for my job, so when I am gone it just gets put on hold. I am used to that though. Anyone want to guess how many emails I will have when I get back? I am gonna say 1,005. Why not, it is a nice number. And 998 of them will be someone telling me I have won $10,000 and need to give out my bank account number or someone wanting me to buy printer supplies at three times the normal cost. Um, ya, delete.

Mike's crew starts painting the Fed Ex building tomorrow. It is a big job, it is going to take awhile. He's excited. Did I mention I am super great at being sarcastic?

My great-grandma turns 99 next week. Almost a century . . . we're having a big birthday party for her. I can only imagine the things she's seen. . . television, World War II, Kennedy, man on the moon, the Vietnam War, the fall of the Soviet Union, computers, cell phones, cloning sheep. She's so sweet and so humble. I really want to sit with her for awhile and ask her about her memories. I want to be able to have stories for my family history stuff.

As a sort of final note here, if it seems like I have been avoiding people lately, don't take it personal. I have just sort of shut out technology and kept things very simple in my life for the last couple weeks and I have not really talked to anybody. I have needed some time to be still, if that makes any sense. Probably not, my mind is weird. Have you ever meditated? Everyone needs a reset. I am sure when I get back to work on Wednesday things will get back into a routine.

I love you all.